Why didn’t I realize these things in the first place?
There are times where I just sit down in our sofa, staring at the ceiling, thinking about things that aren’t supposed to think about. I wonder why, there are certain events in our life where we didn’t give any importance at all but then later on, you realize they are really that important in your life since they made something significant in your life. But things happen dissimilar to what you are thinking. Things have changed. They are working indifferently from the way they used to be.
I have started my life at school simply; pondering school life would be focused to the academe. Successfully to proceed to my master’s degree, is what I really what I wanted to achieve. Simply focusing to my academe, studies, scholarships, whatever things attached to it, are my priorities. Being into this field I am positioned for is apart from my dreams, never been thought of ever since I started my college life.
But things changed the time I started to make a big jumpstart to link with the student body since we have a big project to make related to campus matters where critical issues are bothered to be resolved. So, together with my group, we decided to pursue the idea of taking action to anti-vandalism. This made the dawn for activism. But it was increased when I met someone, someone who created a different world for me, who laid down the stairs for me to step on and start climbing on to the great change which will take out from my comfort zone.
Meeting the president of the student body made a big impact to my life. He is the man who inspired me to become somebody who would make a difference. Nobody has done something like he did. In the first place, he is famous for his charm, and witty thoughts, greatly empowers the many to make a step like he did.
Our collaboration with the project made something; it bore a friendship where anyone couldn’t bother to snatch it from us. I really didn’t expect that that collaboration would remain just like that but it begins to be deep. Meeting each other became frequent, as well as sharing text messages to each other until such time where we gave outlet to our personal lives. This is a big deal, where man reaches out to a woman like me to reveal something personal to him. I just came to feel very trustworthy, and that makes me feel glad, so blessed to be part of his life just like that.
Those times, I have remembered, made me feel something for him. I may be considered as a daydreamer yet I am the kind of girl who dreams to be with this kind of person my life time, as long as I live. But it’s just that the world seems to tell me that he isn’t the right person for me by now. He has his own ambition to reach, and I have mine as an undergraduate.
To cut the long story short, I came to the point where I became so attached with him so much. I’ll just wait for the right time where the world is with us. With God’s providence and blessings, we will be together someday. This is the naked truth spoken from the deepest core of my heart. But instances keep us apart. So, for now, I will do something good where he could be so proud of me, that the person whom he had helped from the beginning, made a significant event for the condition of the students, and to the university, whatever means to do service.
He may not be with me physically, but mentally he keeps on telling me that I should do well not only for my sake but for the sake of the common good. And I will just keep on flowing with the surging waves of the sea, to make things normal. I could be with any man, if they would really make efforts to grab my attention to them, but in my deepest thoughts, it’s him I long for.
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