I have known the world, yet I haven’t known (Original Composition)

I have known the world, yet I haven’t known

(Original Composition)

By Mecyll T. Jamila

I have known the world for nineteen years,

Yet I haven’t known my mother who’s in tears.

I have known when would I frown and angry,

Yet I haven’t known when do my mother frowns.

I have known the world through long hour studies,

Yet I haven’t studied my mother even a single glimpse.

I have known the world with my best of friends,

Yet I haven’t considered my mother as my best friend.

I have known the world with my boyfriend’s love and care,

Yet I haven’t known how my mother loves and cares for me.

I have known the world on my own,

Yet I haven’t accepted that I am already alone.

I have known that she understands what my sacrifices are,

Yet I haven’t known her worries and cries because of me.

I have known that she allows me to go to places where I should be,

Yet I haven’t known her side if she allows or not.

I have known that she is there ready to support me,

Yet I haven’t known her sacrifices just to give what I needed.

I have known that I succeeded,

Yet I haven’t known what my successes mean to her.

I have known that she is smiling with what I have achieved now,

Yet I haven’t known how proud was she and wowed.

I have known that I am living with a strange place,

Yet I haven’t able to make myself available to talk to her about my everyday.

I have known that she was left behind my homeland,

Yet I haven’t known that I would miss her that grand.

I have known that she is waiting for me to come back,

Yet I do not know when would that be.

I have known that she is out there ready to smile at me whenever I call her,

Yet I haven’t known things to say to her.

I have known when would I cry ,

Yet I haven’t known that my successful life made her in tears. 

For my mother, I want to make her happy

Just as how happy I was with her.

Thank you, mama!