Sweet, Heavy Pain

Warm,
Thick,
Filthy.

Pain,
Sweet,
Heavy.

Bed,
Wide,
Classy.

You,
Me,
Together.

Dis-popularity

He stands,
Nobody cares.

He talks,
Nobody listens.

He talks,
Nobody listens.

He sits,
Nobody claps.

Fall, Fell, Fallen (Original Composition)

Fall off,
Lengthy staircase
Heel stumbled
Foot cramped.

Fell off,
Arms caught
Body leaned
Legs trembled.

Fallen off,
Heart beat
Mouth stuttered
Love dawned.

Crossing the Borders (Original Composition)

I. Living.
Was. In the past.
There. Where you and I together.
When. In the cold rainy night.
You. The man I adore.
Kiss. With our bodies in one.
Her. Satisfied with each other's ache.

I have known the world, yet I haven’t known (Original Composition)

I have known the world, yet I haven’t known

(Original Composition)

By Mecyll T. Jamila

I have known the world for nineteen years,

Yet I haven’t known my mother who’s in tears.

I have known when would I frown and angry,

Yet I haven’t known when do my mother frowns.

I have known the world through long hour studies,

Yet I haven’t studied my mother even a single glimpse.

I have known the world with my best of friends,

Yet I haven’t considered my mother as my best friend.

I have known the world with my boyfriend’s love and care,

Yet I haven’t known how my mother loves and cares for me.

I have known the world on my own,

Yet I haven’t accepted that I am already alone.

I have known that she understands what my sacrifices are,

Yet I haven’t known her worries and cries because of me.

I have known that she allows me to go to places where I should be,

Yet I haven’t known her side if she allows or not.

I have known that she is there ready to support me,

Yet I haven’t known her sacrifices just to give what I needed.

I have known that I succeeded,

Yet I haven’t known what my successes mean to her.

I have known that she is smiling with what I have achieved now,

Yet I haven’t known how proud was she and wowed.

I have known that I am living with a strange place,

Yet I haven’t able to make myself available to talk to her about my everyday.

I have known that she was left behind my homeland,

Yet I haven’t known that I would miss her that grand.

I have known that she is waiting for me to come back,

Yet I do not know when would that be.

I have known that she is out there ready to smile at me whenever I call her,

Yet I haven’t known things to say to her.

I have known when would I cry ,

Yet I haven’t known that my successful life made her in tears. 

For my mother, I want to make her happy

Just as how happy I was with her.

Thank you, mama!